Tuesday, January 30, 2001

I wonder where my ai-chan is? She's missing! *gaspgasp*
Disconnected. That's how I feel. Disconnected from people and reality. Everything seemed so bright just a few days ago. And now it comes crashing down and I don't know why. Well, maybe I do. See, for the last couple of days, I tried a little experiment in not taking me anti-depressants. Anyway, I realized yesterday that I wasn't eating again, so it's back on prozac for me.
And it's not like I try to NOT eat. Some part of me feels that I must suffer and hunger pains are a nice way to do it. I really just don't deserve to eat. It's not to loose weight, it's just because I don't eat.
I remember before I went on prozac, I would worry about eating so much that it would literally make me sick to eat. I wouldn't puke or anything but I didn't eat much because my stomach hurt. The sad, sad part is that it was all mental. I'm sick I guess.

Monday, January 29, 2001

I am missing a certain someone. But enough about me, let's ponder....
According to Socrates, a philosopher is someone who discovers the truth and appreciates beauty for the sake of beauty. Where does that put "the Artist"?

Sunday, January 28, 2001

*giggles* Okay, THIS is funny! Who would buy that? Also the blog of the eeer.... month or whatever. Funny!
I have this strange urge to blog. And it's been a few days. When did I get out of the habit of blogginng? *points at c-mas break*